gothicragdoll
Ranger in Training
She gave herself to the light as it faded away, leaving her in darkness
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Post by gothicragdoll on Jul 1, 2008 20:48:37 GMT -5
Authors note: This is my first Fanfic for BLoSC, so don't slay me too bad, but if you don't like it, I have no place to judge. I just wrote this first part today with no intention whatsoever to make it longer then this, but then I got an idea, and now I am going to make it longer then this. I'm sorry for making XR so emoish, but that kinda goes with the story and such. It will make all the sense in the world once I'm done completely. Thank you so much for taking time out of your day to read this, please review if you have anyhting to say about it. Thank you again!
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I looked at the screen and saw nothing on the radar. “I think we’ve lost them.” I looked at my team. They didn’t respond to what I just said. I expected about that much. I had caused a lot of trouble. I looked out the window of the ship and sighed. How was I going to apologize for this one? I know I’m not the best space ranger, and the only reason they don’t deactivate me is because I have my moments. Or when they’re planning to, I do something that makes them think I’m not as bad as they thought. I suppose I will just let them all cool off, and not talk until they do forgive me. Most of the time it didn’t bother me that they were upset with me, but lately it just seemed harder to make them laugh…make them forgive me. I really don’t try to be a hassle. Okay most of the time I do, but that’s when I’m trying to be funny and joke around. I just take it too far sometimes…most of the time. I wish they could see how bad I feel right now. I looked at Booster, but he was just looking a head. Even he wasn’t going to forgive me easily this time. I felt…devastated. That’s the only word to describe it. I looked at Mira and Buzz sitting up front. Of course they would have no reason to look back at me, but something inside beseeched them to look at me. I shook my head and looked at the ground. I just may have blew it this time.
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gothicragdoll
Ranger in Training
She gave herself to the light as it faded away, leaving her in darkness
Posts: 31
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Post by gothicragdoll on Jul 1, 2008 21:35:30 GMT -5
The second part of the story.
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When we got back to the space station Buzz sent me to the Science Bay to be checked on by the LGMs. I rolled there, but debated as to go in or not. I was fine and sure of that. I finally went in, not wanting Buzz to find out and make him even angrier with me then he already was. It didn’t take long for the LGMs to say that there was nothing wrong with me. Nothing wrong with me! Well maybe physically, but emotionally I wasn’t. I just kept beating myself up…with good reason. Why am I so helpless at times? “Ugh!” I didn’t realize I had groaned a loud until I some saw of the LGMs look at me funny. I smiled weakly and said. “Testing out my voice. Everything works!” I smiled with over the top enthusiasm and throwing my arms up in a ta-da way. They immediately went back to what they were doing. I put my arms to my side again. I left the science bay and quickly tried to find some place to be alone. I was sure my friends would be relieved to not have me around at the moment. “The storage room!” I said aloud. No one was in the hallway so no need to cover up my sudden outburst. I smiled for real and started to head in that direction. I walked into the storage room and shut the door right behind me. I leaned against a wall and sank to the floor. Closing my eyes I said, “I won’t be a pain to anyone here.” After awhile I started to debate as to whether I should come out of hiding, but I didn’t feel like talking to anyone still. I decided on staying for a few minutes more when I heard some noises coming from somewhere within the room. I got up as quickly as possible and started to look for who or whatever was making the sound. “No!” I heard a young voice moan. “I don’t think we should.” “Come on!” said another young voice. I found two Junior Space Rangers standing near…The NOS-4-A2 coffin. Once was taking off the vine plant rope off it. “No!” I screamed in panic, but it was too late. I coward in fear of what would happen. I waited, but still nothing came. I opened his eyes and saw the two Junior Space Rangers staring at me. I gave a nervous laugh and then tried to act serious. “What are you two doing down here?” One looked really nervous, but the other didn’t change his stance. “We were dared to come down here, XR.” The nervous one said. The other one made a disgusted noise. “Mark!” he said. “It’s a robot. We don’t have to explain ourselves to it.” He grabbed the boy, and started to walk out of the storage room. I was stunned and hurt by the boy’s harsh words. I didn’t even bother to defend myself to the boys as I watched them leave. I looked down at the ground. “I’m only a robot. I shouldn’t be hurt.” I said quietly. “Why do you say that, little one?” a voice behind me asks. I was so depressed and hurt that I didn’t acknowledge who the voice was. “Because robots are not meant to have them.” I whispered, a tear rolling down his face. Wait! An alarm went off in my head. I turned around to see NOS-4-A2 smiling at me. I started to recoil away from him, but the energy vampire had already gotten a hold of me. I cried out in protest, but the vampire proceeded to laugh. “Do not struggle, settle down, Little One.” He said soothingly, but I continued to try to pry the vampire’s hands off of me. I continued to scream for the vampire to let him go, for help, but it was no use, he tore into me and I was long gone from consciousness.
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gothicragdoll
Ranger in Training
She gave herself to the light as it faded away, leaving her in darkness
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Post by gothicragdoll on Jul 1, 2008 23:11:01 GMT -5
Day 1
I woke up in the science bay. I was in a charger that elevated way above the ground. I looked down to see the LGMs and my team talking. I looked away out the shame that I still felt about the day before. “Hey, XR’s awake!” said Booster. He sounded…happy to see me. This made me look at them. I wasn’t sure if I should smile or keep that robot look on my face. The Charger came to the ground in one swift motion that made me think I was going to crash. The LGMs unhooked me, and I helped myself out. “Morning XR.” Buzz said. “Are you okay?” Mira asked. Boost stood there looking at his robotic friend. I nodded. “I’m fine.” I said. “Why do I look funny?” I asked in a panic. My teammates looked at each other. “No, you look fine, XR.” Said Mira. I gave a sigh of relief. “You had me going there for a second.” I laughed a little. “So what were you doing in the Storage room?” Booster asked curiously. “Storage room?” I said. “I wasn’t in the storage room.” The last I remembered I was in the science bay. “You were found in the storage room.” Buzz said. “We were so worried, because you wouldn’t wake up.” Said Booster. I looked at each of my teammates. What were they talking about? I was in the science bay the entire night. Least that’s what I remember. “Are you sure you’re okay?” Buzz asked. I looked at him. “I’m fine. I must have been sleep walking.” “I didn’t know robots could sleep walk.” Said Booster. I shrugged. “Obviously they can, because that’s what I must have did.” I said.
The rest of the day at least one of my teammates would look at me to make sure I was okay. I stayed mainly quiet because I was trying to figure out why had I been in the Storage room, and more importantly how I got there. We were assigned to catch speeders that day. I was actually relieved because that meant there wasn’t any opportunity for me to become a problem. Except maybe if I started to talk nonstop, but today, that wasn’t an issue either. I sat and listened to Mira repeat the speeder of the space ships going by. Everyone looked as bored as they felt. I got up, and decided I couldn’t stand it in the same room with these people. I felt guilty for having this feeling, but I couldn’t say that I just didn’t care anymore at the same time either. I rolled over to the shoot, and went to a different part of the ship. No one had said anything when I left nor stopped me, so I didn’t feel bad for leaving them to do all the work of sitting and waiting for some common human to speed. Maybe even a robot. I sat down on the floor. I thought about the day before, and how I had jeopardized the plan and let Zurg’s minions get away. They didn’t take anything important, at least I didn’t mess it up that bad, but still. I had let them get away. What was wrong with me? Was I that desperate to no longer be seen as just the robot ranger, but just a Space Ranger. “I am a Space Ranger.” I said allowed. I am! I screamed in my mind. I started to think about Mira, Buzz, and Booster, and how they had not said anything today about my misadventure the day before. Maybe time had healed everything this time. They hadn’t seemed upset with me at all. Maybe I was mentally accusing them to still be angry with me, and they had already forgiven me. Maybe I needed to forget the incident and forgive myself. I sighed. “I am a space Ranger. I can over come this!” he said. He was now trying hard to forget what had happened, but it was hard not to think about it. “Are you okay, XR?” Buzz stood behind me. I jumped at the sound of his voice. I turned around to face him. I was trying to figure out just how long he had been watching me. “Yeah,” I said quickly. “I’m fine.” Buzz didn’t change a thing about his appearance. “XR, I know when one of my rangers is not okay, and you my friend, are not okay.” He said sternly. “Care to talk about it?” His voice softened, which made me look down at the floor. “It’s about yesterday.” I said softly. “I’m really sorry, Buzz, I didn’t meant to wreck the entire mission.” Buzz looked down at me. “That was yesterday, my friend.” He said. I looked up at him. “You’re not angry with me?” “I have to admit I was in the beginning, but you made up for it by getting the new weapon plans back in good hands." He said. “You know us. We cannot stay angry with you for very long. But I must ask you never pull a stunt like that again.” I nodded in gratitude. “Yes, Sir!” I saluted him in respect. I smiled for the first time that day and I felt better too. I was the one who was carrying on about yesterday. He and I both went to the main piloting room on the ship together. Everything was fine after that.
I woke up later on the ground in the science bay. For some reason I didn’t feel like myself though. I looked around me and realized someone was calling my name. It was NOS-4-A2, I rolled right over to him like nothing was wrong. Like we were best friends or secret lovers, or something like that. He ordered me around and I obeyed. I knew exactly what I was doing, but couldn’t do nothing to prevent it. I helped him get various codes and even helped him put it in his programming. I did it all enthusiastically! The entire time I wanted to stop, but something inside wouldn’t let me. I just did it. I felt disgusted with myself. I was a Space Ranger and couldn’t even keep myself from helping out an enemy. After all that he bit me again, and I felt weakened until I couldn’t stay awake any longer.
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gothicragdoll
Ranger in Training
She gave herself to the light as it faded away, leaving her in darkness
Posts: 31
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Post by gothicragdoll on Jul 2, 2008 1:12:22 GMT -5
Authors note: The planets that you read about are completely made up by me. I did this one to 1) time filling, 2) to add on to the story of XR, and 3) there is no three. Thank you for reading!
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Day 2
I woke up back in the science bay. I was afeared at what could have happened while I was unconscious. I jumped up and looked around the entire place, and found nothing, and then I thought it wasn’t just the Science Bay codes I have given him, but…all of them! I ran out the room, and looked all around me for anything that looked out of place. I ran down the halls, but everything was fine. I hadn’t been looking in front of me when I bumped into someone. I knew it was a someone when I heard it cry out of both shock and most likely pain. I looked up to see, “Mira!” I shouted out of surprise. She put her hands on her hips. “XR, what are you doing?” “Nothing!” I said. “Just getting some exercise.” I smiled really innocent and bright. She shook her head. “We’ve been looking all over for you.” She said. “The LGM’s said you just went insane and ran around the entire area and left.” “I must admit, Mira, when I woke up this morning I felt an uncanny need to run, and now it’s out of my system and I’m good.” I continued to smile. There was nothing wrong with Star Command. Of course, I didn’t see the entire station, but no one was worried or acted like the station was in peril. Mira looked at me, and sighed. “Come one. We have a mission.” “What? Waiting for something to speed in space?” I said with sarcastic enthusiasm. “No, something else. We have to go some senator and bring him to some planet or other.” “Wow, are most informative.” I smirked at her as we headed for the Launching Bay. “Hey, I didn’t read the entire thing this time. I was kinda looking for you.” She said heatedly. I didn’t make anymore smart remarks to her.
The Senator was from Centurai, the planet of art, music, and dancing. It was a very cultured place. I sat and listened to the Senator tell stories about his childhood and such. I think I must have fallen asleep at some point in time because I don’t remember things from the current story he was telling…or maybe I missed the end of the last one. I couldn’t tell. We were taking him to the Planet of Trenia, a place of science and arithmetic. The two planets were trying to create an alliance to make sure that both worlds get equally educated in both fields. To me this sounded odd, mainly because that there were two separate planets for these things, but I’m just a robot. Who am I to judge. I felt a strong urge to tell this senator that this really should have been an issue in the first place, but I held my tongue. Wow I had been doing that a lot lately, but mainly because I know I say some really offensive things, but currently my thought are going too far. We dropped him off, and actually left him there. He was going to try to try the academics he wasn’t familiar it out himself before making a set decision about the alliance. “I hope to get you Rangers to bring me back home.” He said. “I enjoyed this long trip.” We said the same thing and then started for home. I have a huge sigh. “Thank goodness we’re rid of him.” I said once we were off. They team just shook their heads in a ‘yep, that’s XR’ kind of way. “I mean seriously one planet for dancing and art. Another for Science. What were these people thinking.” I went on for some time on how ignorant the whole situation was. “Okay, XR, enough!” Mira said. “I know you think it’s stupid, but that’s how things are.” She looked back at me. I stopped immediately. I knew I must have sounded…unreasonable. “Sorry, Geez, I was just saying.” “Yeah, uh-hu, you said way too much.” She started to sound like I offended her. Maybe I did. I didn’t know all of her customs on her planet…perhaps they do the same thing. I looked away. What was happening to me? I know I can be mouthy and insensitive, but I knew I was going overboard with it. That’s most likely why I’ve been holding my tongue a lot more, but all of the sudden it was unbearable not to say it. It’s almost like I wanted to hurt people. Intentionally.
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gothicragdoll
Ranger in Training
She gave herself to the light as it faded away, leaving her in darkness
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Post by gothicragdoll on Jul 2, 2008 2:19:13 GMT -5
Authors note: Hola! Well I must say this one was a fun part to write. Also I would like to add that the arguement placed in this part, most of the things said was taken from an arguement from one of my most favorite films ever. I changed some of it to match the fanfic, so if you recognized some of it, or it sounded familiar that is why. The reason for the arguement being what it is, is just it seemed to fit the Fanfic. The movie it is from, "A Tale of Two Sisters" it's a Korean horror, and very good. If you ever get the opertunity to see it, please do.
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Day 3
I was not myself again. I was aware of everything going on around me, but again I couldn’t stop myself. I started to help NOS-4-A2 change some of the data in the computer room. Doing this would change everything, and make Star Command into a different station. It would no longer have any of the characteristics it did before. Even the air would feel different. Only he...and I would know how this station worked. I tried to resist it, but it only made NOS-4-A2 angry with me. When I would manage to not do something he told me to do he would bite me and drain more of my power. The room was sound proof…oh how convenient, so my screams of excruciating pain were not heard by anyone. I never felt so alone and scared. I knew fear and pain, but nothing before could have measured as to what NOS-4-A2 did to me. The worst part about it is that when he drained my power he was not doing it to knock me out, but to cause me pain. I hated how he laughed at me when I lay on the floor. Not being able to move. Even long after he was done I could feel the pain. He knew I could too, but he only degraded me more if I let on. When I tried not to let on just how much I was in pain he taunted me. So it really didn’t matter, but he knew he would have to stop aggrieving me, for I soon would be offline. When he finally released me I ran to find Buzz and the gang. I needed their help. Star Command needed help. I found them in the lounge sitting and talking. Their laughs comforted me and disgusted me at the same time. I hated they sat here laughing while I was in unimaginable pain. “Buzz! Guys!” I shouted at them. They looked at me. “Please I need your help!” I some what shouted in all the urgency I could manage. NOS-4-A2 had drained a lot of my energy I could barely stand, but I held myself up. “What is it?” Booster asked. “It’s NOS-4-A2! He’s back and trying to take over Star Command!” I said. I didn’t want to admit as to what he had done to me. They looked at each other, and Buzz stood. I knew he would help me! He was obviously angered by what I had said. It was when he looked like he was going to strike me was when I realized he didn’t believe me. I looked at Mira and Booster. They wouldn’t even look at me. “Buzz! I’m not lying.” I said. “We talked about this lying to get attention, XR.” He said as calmly as he could. It appeared in his form that he was trying to control himself. “That’s why Zurg’s Minions got away! You wanted attention so you ruined…no obliterated our mission. When is this going to stop?” I stared at him for a long time. He put his hand on my shoulder, but I moved away from him. “Do not touch me.” I whispered. I started to roll away, but he grabbed me. I jerked with such I force that I was unaware that I never would have thought I would have the ability to do what I did. Especially with all NOS-4-A2 did to me. “Get off me!” I shouted uncaring of who heard me. “XR, what is wrong with you?” Buzz asked in disbelief. “Are you that oblivious?” I asked. He tried to touch me again. I recoiled fiercely. “Do not don’t me with those filthy organic hands!” he shouted. Buzz stood there looking at him. “What?” he asked. “Why would you say that to me?” “You’re all the same!” I shouted. “That’s not true, XR.” He tried to reason, but I wouldn’t hear of it. “XR, you need to stop this. You need to understand…” I cut him off. “Why is it always me?! Why is there always something wrong with me?! Why are you only asking me to understand?!” I shrieked. We stared at each other for a second. “You really don’t know, do you?” “Know what, XR?” he snapped. “Tell me what you are going through. Tell me.” He was calm when he said this, which frightened me. “Will it change anything?” he stared at me. “Will it?” “Please stop it, XR..” Buzz said. “Just don’t, you’ll get sick again.” That final comment stopped me dead in my tracks. He and I both knew I had been passing out a lot lately. They would find me somewhere, and I don’t remember how I got there. Now I knew it was because of NOS-4-A2. “What?” I said in a dead whisper. We stared at each other again. “Fine.” I said in tone that was calmer then I felt. “From now on, anything that happens here, all the horrible things done…you brought here. You’re responsible for them all.” “Buzz Lightyear to my office. NOW!” Daddy said over an intercom. Buzz stared at me for awhile. “I have nothing more to say to you.” I looked at Mira and Booster. “All of you.” I turned back to Buzz. “So you can go see what the Commander wants.” I left them standing there like that. I felt the deepest abhorrence for my team…my friends. I stopped in the middle of the hallway. I also felt the deepest hyperalgesic I had ever felt before. I stood there in the middle of the hall. I had no where to go. No one to turn to for help or comfort. My friends didn’t believe me, and NOS-4-A2 would be waiting for me to come back to him. I was truly alone.
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gothicragdoll
Ranger in Training
She gave herself to the light as it faded away, leaving her in darkness
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Post by gothicragdoll on Jul 8, 2008 12:43:20 GMT -5
Day 4
The night before I had spent charging. I didn’t bother to go find Buzz or anyone else for that matter. I thought for sure Daddy wanted to deactivate me for my outburst, but as time went on no one came to demobilize me. I sat in the storage room, for that was one way I could be alone. I didn’t want to see anyone. I knew I had caused trouble before, but I wouldn’t lie about NOS-4-A2. They knew how serious of a situation it was if he was involved. How could I make them believe me? Maybe I should just go along with NOS-4-A2, and let them suffer the consequences for not believing me. I felt bad for feeling that way, but I just didn’t care anymore. I felt defeated and tired of caring. Tired of trying to make them love me. Not just love me, but show they love me. Showing me I was more then a mere robot. An inutile experiment. Did they really see me that way? I do not want to believe it, but I was starting to have my suspicions. I got up from my spot on the floor, and started to pace around the small area I had made myself. “No,” I said. “They do love me.” “How sure of this are you, Little One?” NOS-4-A2 appeared in front of me. “Very.” I said with more confidence then I felt. They must love me. Why keep me around for so long if they didn’t want me? I had to make them believe me, but how? What could I do? NOS-4-A2 laughed. “You honestly think that the organics love you? Tell me then why are we having this conversation if they love you?” he asked, and floated closer to me. I did not back away. I looked away form him and he laughed again. I thought about it. “Because…” I said. “I made a mistake.” He stopped laughing and looked at me. “Made a mistake?” he said in, what seemed to me, a shocked voice. He smiled again. “And what mistake would that be?” I looked at him. “I lied about being in trouble and needing their help.” He said. “Why would you do that?” he fished. I knew what he wanted, and for some reason I felt I had no choice, but to give it to him. I, XR, wanted attention and “Proof” they would help me if I ever needed it, but the plan backfired. It made them unhappy with me. Now that I really needed help they weren’t as willing to jump up and help me, but this time it wasn’t about me. It was about Star Command and the whole Galactic Alliance. They were in more danger then I was. Sure NOS-4-A2 could kill me, but if he succeeded, then everything that we had worked so hard for would be meaningless. He knew the answer to his own question now he was going to toy with it. “So, Little One, you wanted proof that they loved you.” He stated. This annoyed me because I had just went over this…oh wait…I hadn’t said it aloud. Regardless, I nodded, looking to the floor. He gave another horrific laugh. I flinched as his laugh echoed throughout the room. What was I going to do? This couldn’t go any farther. The next step in NOS-4-A2’s plan was to take hold of Star Command. I suddenly looked up. What was stopping him from doing this very moment, unless he came to bite me, and control me again. I didn’t understand why. I gave him all the information he needed. I looked down again. I gave him everything. I had just committed treason. I hated myself for doing what I did. Why couldn’t I be stronger? Why couldn’t I resist at all cost? I thought about it. At the time I was both being controlled and in inconceivable pain. I should have let him deactivate me instead of giving him Star Command. I was no better then a criminal. Giving in just like that. “I made more then one mistake that day.” I said aloud. NOS-4-A2 stopped laughing and looked down at me. I looked at him. “I didn’t need proof that they loved me, or that I was a Space Ranger. I doubted them, because I was…” What was I? Insecure? Lonely? Or both? I was both. I was insecure about my place in the team. I was always the one who caused the most trouble, needed the most help, and was disparate for attention. I was lonely because, even though they came to my rescue, they didn’t always treat me as a partner. Sometimes I was just the robot helper. At the time I hadn’t thought of all the times they had helped me before. Lately I felt like I was nothing more then the robot. That’s why I did it, but still that was no excuse for letting criminals go. I was wrong. Now I had to fight to make them believe me, and defy NOS-4-A2 as well. I knew what I ahd to do. NOS-4-A2 stared at me…waiting for me to finish the sentence. I started to shake my head. “Dark Master,” I realized that I had said that on my own, but decided not to make it an issue as of now. “I’m leaving. You have everything you need to carry out your plan. I am obsolete to you now.” I said it so calmly it scared even me. I turned around and started to leave.
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gothicragdoll
Ranger in Training
She gave herself to the light as it faded away, leaving her in darkness
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Post by gothicragdoll on Jul 8, 2008 15:55:23 GMT -5
Day 4 part two.
I was determined to make them believe me. I wanted nothing more, but I never made it to the door. NOS-4-A2 had called me back to him. Just his voice could put me under his spell, so I had to obey. I fought against him, but something in the back of my head said that everything was going to be okay. To quite fighting, which only made me fight more, but after a few minutes of struggling I finally gave in. I hated myself for it. “Now, Little One, what was it that you were saying about leaving?” he smiled evilly. Ugh! I was so frustrated. “Leaving? My only intent is to serve my Dark Master.” I heard myself say. “Lovely.” He said still smiling. “Now, you will go to the main control room, and shut the rangers into the rooms they stand in.” I felt my body head for the door. “Oh, and Little One, stop anyone who stands in your way. By any means necessary.” I started to question what he was going to do in all this. If I go alone and shut down all exits and lock all the rooms how was he going to come to the control room and finish his plan. Unless there is more to the plan then what he told me. I started down the hall in a panic. Some rangers walked by me, but didn’t acknowledge I was even there. I wanted to scream at them what I was about to do. I saw my team up ahead and wished they wouldn’t notice me either. “Hey, XR!” Boosters overly happy voice called to me. They hadn’t done anything to stop me yet, so I just kept walking. Maybe they’ll think I didn’t hear them. “XR, where have you been?” Mira asked. We were a few feet across from each other. “Nowhere.” I said. “Just you know having some alone time.” I tried to leave, but Buzz stopped me. “Wait just a minute, XR.” He said. “We need to talk.” “Not right now, Buzz I need to finish…” I tried to tell them what I was going to do, but my effort was fruitless. NOS-4-A2 stopped me from saying what I was going to do. I really wanted out of there. There being my own body, because the body was no longer mine. It belonged to NOS-4-A2. I wanted to tell my team what was going on so bad. “Finish?” he crossed his arms over his chest. I fought to tell them the truth. “It isn’t any of your business.” I snapped. I felt an uncanny need to hurt him as much as he did me. It wasn’t like me to hold a grudge, but this time I couldn’t let it go. Something told me this need wasn’t NOS-4-A2’s doing either. “Now, XR.” He began. I pulled a gun out. “No!” I shouted. “I must finish….” I was fighting NOS-4-A2 and myself. I wanted them to feel my frustration, and I wanted them to believe me. I wanted them to pay for hurting me, and I wanted them to help me. What was going on with me? Buzz backed away a bit. “What is going on, Ranger?” “I told you what was going on.” I said coldly. I felt that same hatred for them from the night Buzz and I argued. Why didn’t they believe me? For a second I felt like my body was mine again, but that didn’t last long. I felt NOS-4-A2’s presence all over me again. My team was keeping me from doing my job. “XR, we want to help you.” Mira took a step near me, and I turned and shot her. I was shocked at what I had done, but I couldn’t help myself. My Dark Master was making sure I was kept in line. I looked at Booster and Buzz, and ran. I didn’t even turn to look at them when they shouted my name. What have I done? Mira didn’t do anything to me, and I shot her. I couldn’t stop myself. I wish I could have been strong enough to tell them. To resist. Some rangers must have seen what I had done because now they were after me. They shot at me. I also shot back, hitting yet another ranger. I was able to lose them, and I ran to that control room. Some LGMs were in there. I held a gun to them. “Get away from the controls.” I said. They did what I told them to. I pushed them all into a closet like room, and locked them in. I lasered the door so it wouldn’t open again. I did the same with the main door as well. I did what I was told and locked down all exits and rooms. I looked around ignoring the screams of the LGM’s. What now? I looked around myself, and then realized what NOS-4-A2 was really planning all along. He wasn’t going to carry out his plan at all. It was me. I was going to take over Star Command. I knew everything about his plan. I helped him with it. I grabbed my helmet. “What have I done?”
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Ranger in Training
She gave herself to the light as it faded away, leaving her in darkness
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Post by gothicragdoll on Aug 14, 2008 23:29:32 GMT -5
Day 5
I once heard a man went crazy, and tried to cut himself out of his own body. I was wishing I could do the same. I had locked all the Space rangers in cells on Star Command. Their suits were taken away. NOS-4-A2 was enjoying every moment of this. He laughed evily, and started to drain all of the suits so he could control them if need be. At this point in time I couldn’t remember what it was like to be me. I was just a tool to him, and a traitor to my friends and fellow rangers. On the bright side I got what I wanted. Well part of it any way. I wanted them to believe me. Now they couldn’t deny that NOS-4-A2 was here and active. They couldn’t help me. Nothing could help me now. Their suits were useless, and any attempts at using any computers or machines was foolish. They would only get caught, and I was sure that they would either die, or maybe my Dark Master would make them into wirewolves. He and I walked into the area where the cells were. He flouted in and laughed. I saw my friends in the cell. They were all glaring at him. I couldn’t help but think if I was human I would be there with them. That would be so much better then standing on the other side of the cell. “You’ll never get away with this!” Booster said trying to sound confident. I was starting to worry that his spirit had been broken. I could handle myself with a broken spirit, but it tore at me to see my friends that way. “I think I already have thanks to my little helper.” He gestured to me. I looked at my friends. They had such heart breaking expressions on their faces. If I had a real beating heart I was sure it would have been broken to see them look at me that way. I wanted to tell them how sorry I was for being so weak. I wanted to hear them say that it wasn’t my fault, but it was. I was responsible for this sad state that Star Command was in. “We are Space Rangers.” Said Mira. She had not been hurt too badly form when I shot her. She was more shocked then hurt. “When we get out of these cells you’ll be so sorry for trying to take over Star Command.” NOS-4-A2 smiled. “I believe I already have my dear.” I waited for Buzz to say something courageous, but he didn’t. NOS-4-A2 seemed to wait too, but he eventually left. He was obiviously angry for not getting the fight that Buzz normally had in him. I stood there caught in the middle. I knew what the right thing to do was, but NOS-4-A2 still had control over me. I tried to resist to turn to them to say something to lighten the situation. As I thought about that, it was stupid. What could possibly lighten up this situation? “I’m sorry.” I heard myself say. I felt like my old self for a few seconds, but went back into Dark Master mode. “XR,” Buzz finally said. I looked at him. “I should have listened.” He said. “Now look at what I have done.” This was my chance to tell him how I felt. To tell him it was his fault. To make him hurt like I had been. “No,” I shook my head. “The darkness has finally won.” The look on their faces was horrifying. “I knew this was coming. From the first time NOS-4-A2 took over my mind, I knew. That is why I wanted proof that you still loved me even though. That I was still good enough to be loved, and that I hadn’t fallen that far. I realize now that I could have resisted this time. I gave in not because I was weak, but because I was….” Buzz cut me off. “No!” he shouted. “XR, you are good! You are a Space Ranger! You’ve done so many good things. NOS-4-A2 is controlling you. He’s making you say these things!” I shook my head. “Buzz, the only thing I’ve done is make one careless mistake after another. I've wrecked countless missions.” I couldn’t answer the part about my Dark Master. “You always made up for it.” Mira said. “You always turned it around.” I wanted to believe them, but I had done so many horrible things since the beginning of the week. I gave my Dark Master codes, helped him reprogram Star Command, let Zurgs minions go, shot Mira, locked up my fellow Space Rangers, and countless other little things I can’t think of anymore. “I wish what you said was true.” I said. “But look at me. Look at the things I’ve done. I’m not a Space Ranger. I’m a criminal. Probably the worst of them all.” I turned to leave them. I was starting to realize something about myself. I had changed and NOS-4-A2 was responsible for only part of this change. It’s not like this was a tantrum of suppressed feelings. I admit I’m not perfect. I was vain, I gambled, said some things I shouldn’t have, and much more, but even then I was never evil. I never wanted revenge for hurt feelings. I never felt hatred toward the people who cared about me. I never betrayed them. I could have resisted NOS-4-A2. Being deactivated would be better then being responsible for all this. I committed treason. I’m just as bad as any villain this whole galaxy. I had crossed the line. There was no going back now. I hated the fact that I had just given up.
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gothicragdoll
Ranger in Training
She gave herself to the light as it faded away, leaving her in darkness
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Post by gothicragdoll on Aug 18, 2008 23:02:10 GMT -5
Day 6
Well in just a few days I had managed to destroy whatever good there was in the universe, and betray my friends, Star Command, and the Galactic Alliance. I thought about this and since I had officially reached the point of no return I decided to have a little fun with it. There was a way to set things right. I just had to play my cards right. First was to make my friends truly believe I stopped believing in good all together, and making NOS-4-A2 think I was now on his side. I still felt bad for being the way I am, but like Mira said no matter how badly I messed everything up, I always turned it around. That’s exactly what I was going to do. All day I “helped” NOS-4-A2 with his evil plot of taking over the world’s energy supply. Okay that’s not how he put it, but this is what I think he really meant. I did so enthusiastically, which made me shutter. I know I was suppose to be pretending, but sometimes I kind of got in the moment of things. I hate how certain situations do that. I needed to distract NOS-4-A2 enough so I could change back the codes and contact my friends, and the other rangers. As much as I would like to be able to do it by myself…I couldn’t. I needed help. Maybe even more then the others realize. I sometimes hate knowing how weak I am, and the others around me don’t or don’t let on if they do know. “Dark Master,” I said. NOS-4-A2 turned on me with such fierceness I backed away a little. “Don’t you want to talk to Zurg, and brag about how you conquered Star Command?” I said soundly a little innocent, and truly trying to help his already big ego. He thought about it for a moment, and said, “Ah yes, Daddy Dearest. I suppose he would like to know he is out of the job.” He went to the contact room, and left me in the main computer room. I knew I had to be quick so I attached myself to the computer, and started to change everything. I put everything back to the way it was. I just had to hope that he wouldn’t try to use anything that needed a code to get into before I could talk to Buzz. I left the room and heard shouting. I was sure that was Zurg. I shook my head. “Villains.” I said allowed. I ran all the way to the cells where Buzz and the gang were. “Buzz! Mira! Booster!” I said running straight up to the bars. They looked up at me. “XR, what are you doing?” Booster asked. I was already entering the code to let them go. “I’m busting you out of here.” “Why?” Mira asked. I folded my arms across my chest once they were free. “Do I really have to answer that question.” “I think the darkness took over.” Buzz made fun of me. “I had to say something to get on NOS-4-A2’s good side. I couldn’t say, ‘Oh Buzz what are we going to do? How are we going to defeat NOS-4-A2?’ could I?” I said. “Those are very good questions.” A voice said behind me. I could tell by my friends’ faces that this was not good. I turned to see my Dark Master. “A better question is did you really think I wasn’t in your mind even when I wasn’t controlling you?” he smiled evilly. I had to admit I was speechless. My friends were defenseless, and if he bit me I would be under his control again.
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gothicragdoll
Ranger in Training
She gave herself to the light as it faded away, leaving her in darkness
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Post by gothicragdoll on Aug 18, 2008 23:02:45 GMT -5
Day 7
I was horrified. He knew what I was planning on doing the entire time. I couldn’t escape him even when he wasn’t controlling me. Just how long was he there inside my mind? Was he there since the very moment he bit me when Daddy told me to go check the mystery cargo? Will I ever be rid of him if we escape this? “Dark Master.” I choked out. He knew what I was thinking so I couldn’t pull a, ‘I don’t know what you’re talking about’ stunt. He blasted my friends and they fell backward farther into the cell. In all honesty they never walked out of the cell. When the main cells computer didn’t obey his orders he automatically looked at me. “Little One, imprison the organics!” He ordered me. I hesitated and he shot bolts of electricity at me. I was sent flying backward. I heard someone call my name, but I couldn’t tell who it was. I finally got up, and did as I was ordered. Once they were locked up again NOS-4-A2 bit me right in front of them. I tried to hold my tongue, but soon I cried out in pain. He dropped me on the ground. “That will teach you to disobey me again.” I laid on the ground unable to move. He laughed at me. It rang through out the room. I cringed at the sound. It took a few seconds to realize that Buzz, Mira, and Booster escaped, and was fighting NOS-4-A2. I sat up. I had no clue where they had got their guns, but I wasn’t going to complain either. I watched as both sides gave rather good blows. NOS-4-A2 grabbed Mira and I reacted. I made myself taller and charged at him. He reacted just as quick as I did because he punched a hole in me. He ripped out some of my parts, and dropped Mira. Everything stopped at once. I heard everyone in the room shout my name. I gasped out a fake breath of air. I shook and electricity waves surrounded me. Time stopped, and all I could say was, “System malfunction.” My voice quivered as I spoke. I fell backward out like a light.
One week later
I opened my eyes to see a group of people standing around me. “XR, you’re okay!” Booster said excitedly. I looked around myself and asked, “What happened? And don’t tell me what happened to me. Where’s NOS-4-A2?” Mira and Buzz looked at each other. “He got away, XR.” Mira said quietly. I felt this overwhelming sense of dread. “Now, XR, don’t panic.” Buzz started to say. I jumped out of the charger. “Don’t panic! Don’t panic! Do you realize that he may still be in my head?” Now that sounded crazy. “He could know everything I know for all we know!” “XR, XR.” Buzz said. “Don’t worry. We’ll protect you.” “I’m not worried about me!” I snapped back. Though I had to admit I was worried about being controlled again. I hated that thought...that feeling. “What if he….” Mira cut me off. “Then we’ll fight him again.” Mira said. “We’re space rangers. We’ll do whatever it takes to defeat NOS-4-A2.” Her words were comforting, but not enough to convince me. When the LGM’s were done with me I went for a walk around the station. It felt good to see that everything was back to normal. Or at least semi-normal. My teammates found me and walked up to me. “Are you okay, XR?” Mira asked. “Yeah, I’ll be fine.” I said. “Once things are back to normal you’ll be your goofy, fun-loving self again.” Buzz said. I shook my head. “Things are never going to be normal again.” I said. “NOS-4-A2 may be gone physically, but he’s still here. I can feel him. He’s waiting for me.” All three looked at each other. “XR, we’re going to get through this. NOS-4-A2 can’t go on forever.” “Neither can I.” I said. “XR.” Buzz said. “Well it’s the truth. One day he’ll be deactivated and so will I. the only thing I don’t know is who will be here longer.” “You will be here longer.” Buzz said. “We are going to help you. We’re your friends.” I smiled when they said that. I nodded, but didn’t say anything. We stood there for awhile and finally I broke the silence. “Buzz, there is something I have to tell you.” I said. “I’m sorry for blaming you for what NOS-4-A2 was doing to me. It wasn’t fair. I didn’t give you a reason to believe me. Especially what I had done only a few days before.” “XR, I should have known better then to believe you’d lie about NOS-4-A2.” He said. I still felt I accused him wrongly. “Mira, Booster, I also want to apologize for all I have done in the past week.” They smiled and nodded. “You know we love you.” Booster said. This made me stand there. They love me. They said it. I knew it, but they said it. If only they knew the joy they gave me by those words, but I had a feeling they did know. We walked together in silence as friends…more like family. I knew they would always be there to rescue me. To believe in me when I stop believing in myself. To love me when I hate myself. NOS-4-A2 was still out there waiting for me. Waiting to take over Star Command, and the rest of the Galactic Alliance. Fighting him will never be easy. I cannot escape him. He would always be here, but for the first time in what seems like ages I felt relief and a peace within me. Maybe I was free from him…even if it’s only until we meet again. I couldn’t help but only hope I would be free of him completely. To feel like I can live again.
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Post by jannagirl1993 on Aug 21, 2008 15:11:48 GMT -5
cool
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